Surprising isn't it?

How psychology works? Few words could scar you for life and few can heal all the wounds of life. The truth behind the most loyal, attentive, obedient and selfless person is actually a child who's shaking in fear of worthlessness, rejection, abuse and hate. Creating a shield of perfection to avoid pain forgetting we deserve love for who we are, not for how beneficial we are. I was waiting for this moment. To finally find peace within myself. To feel the words that it's ok, it's not your fault, you deserve love too. To make sure that i can free myself from my survival mode. Even before the real freedom arrives cuz, if i don't even have the mentality to be able to feel alright then even if i have it. I would still be unable to feel it. Kinda shocked too. Idk how I'd fill up the empty spot but ig that spot will make me special from most of the people like a Aesthetic of my own. A person who values love, affection and care as it was rarely given to me despite my endless sacrifices and efforts.