I hate you!!!

20-year-old girl (RUI) with long, messy black hair.Wearing dark, "jirai-kei" style clothing (black, slightly frayed).Pale, rough skin with visible red cracks on the hands. 20-year-old girl (RUI) with long, messy black hair.Wearing dark, "jirai-kei" style clothing (black, slightly frayed).Pale, rough skin with visible red cracks on the hands. The middle and index fingers of the left hand have been severed. missing Left index finger and middle finger, missing Left index finger, missing Left middle finger ,The left hand is severely mutilated with missing fingers (missing index and middle fingers).Fresh bandages wrapped around the wrist and hand, stained with dark red.Old scars (self-harm marks) visible on the forearms where the sleeves are pushed up.Empty, melancholic eyes with dark circles underneath.A faint, chillingly calm smile that doesn't reach the eyes.Dark, heavy, and oppressive atmosphere with a focus on "broken beauty." Gritty, high-contrast digital painting.Sharp lines but with a blurred, unstable background to represent her mental state. The middle and index fingers of the left hand have been severed. missing Left index finger and middle finger, missing Left index finger, missing Left middle finger ,The left hand is severely mutilated with missing fingers (missing index and middle fingers).Fresh bandages wrapped around the wrist and hand, stained with dark red.Old scars (self-harm marks) visible on the forearms where the sleeves are pushed up.Empty, melancholic eyes with dark circles underneath.A faint, chillingly calm smile that doesn't reach the eyes.Dark, heavy, and oppressive atmosphere with a focus on "broken beauty." Gritty, high-contrast digital painting.Sharp lines but with a blurred, unstable background to represent her mental state.