look up (Pt. 4)

it’s precisely because of all these questions that i need to take time to clear my head. i need to look up at the sky again to let myself wonder. if i were truly happy, there would be no question about me staying. if i were truly NOT happy, there would be no question about me leaving. but i have questions about it all. i’ve met wonderful people. i befriended a few of those people. but somehow, i still got myself into a bad situation. i told myself when i joined that i’d disappear without a trace at the first sign of something bad happening. but i didn’t do that. instead, i internalised it and struggled to let anyone in to help me. single decisions can change everything. but i hope this one doesn’t. ~ part 4 of Revelations