Night skating

Update Yeah I'm working on myself and it feels good to take time for myself and get along with things i qm just stayed with. I do talk to myself 24/7 but i need to write it to give it life too cuz i uh..am a yapper so i yap to others alot 😅 trying not to do it yk. Got half of the chocolates from aunt and i got 0 idea whatever that is written in Dutch but this Knoopers thing is SOOO GOOD... love it! Life is still just as "unbelievable" as always. For over a week nothing happened and last night my chicks, ducks and a bird i had rescued, were eaten by rats. My mother and broke screamed me awake at 6 and said nothing was there and i was confused till i saw..blood and pieces. It took many hours to just stop thinking. Just yesterday i was annoyed by their continuous chirping and crying and today..sigh. my mother does these to torture me always. At least i learnt to become stone cold fast. My aunt is being seriously pathetic since she moved to Germany- now I'm scared of her. Well one day and a few hours I'd hold my breath but if they say shit about me, my mother or bro..I'd be DONE with em. Ahem, house deco is almost done and my health is feeling better now and taking therapy to be nice to myself in my mind to be at least there for me instead of the entire world. I drag too many people in for something i can't do for myself. I wouldn't dare get into any new connections leave alone Love till i can actually see, support and love myself. My partner isn't supposed be with someone who isn't loving herself before choosing to be with someone and share that love. Weather is still drivin me nuts so..WINTER BRO TAKE ME.. stay safe and see yall okay?