A little of me

I'm confused with life. but i am trying my best with everything i have instead of grieving about the past, lost opportunities and my lack. i am much more than that and i am building more and more everyday. I'm still not sure if i want to let anyone in my heart again so I'm just being a bit distant. I'd be back but it needs time and to give myself another reason to love and give cuz..I've seen too much by now. I'm probably under surveillance, givin the fact some fear me. imagine being so strong abd capable they gotta team up and fight u behind your back. Damn