Hiding in the blue (Lifestyle)

I lost the song hehe Read at your own risk pal Update I'm alive although i do not wish to be. Family, works, heat, animals are driving me insane so I'm breaking to the point i wanna juat scream and die. Pms is making everything idgf about igf. So PATHETIC. My editing is not making any sense up to me. Getting no time to do anything and peace has left my soul. My health condition got even worse to the point i can barely walk. She agreed to take me to the doctors after EID and till then i am A GONER. Took pills that could at least make sure i don't die in 5 seconds so I'm alive. My period might come soon, VERY soon. Saw my ex is alive cuz he was online. I thought dude died cuz he was off everywhere. Anxi is on mostly but my heart broke so bad i don't have the courage to even say that I'm glad he's back. I got a friend on YouTube who's from my country. I don't bond much with people my age in my country cuz they are terrible and treat me pathetically but she's nice. Collab news? No one said anything by themselves so ig i gotta ask them personally for it. Idk how I'm alive. But I've got strong enough to stand by myself and not cry or want someone to hold or heal me. From ache of past and live of present. I built something unbreakable in me. Thanks to everybody, I've got stronger. Thank you sooo much buddies. Love you all. See ya