And exausting to for half the summer it was only preparations for the winter what i know too well we can't afford to only buy but still... i can barely sleep a bit doe to the heat and my dad think letting all doors open would let cool air inside when is only heat and bugs coming inside and during the night is mosquitos and the last year i covered a good piece of the wall in mosquito coprses (and every afternoon im full of bites on my legs) beside all the yelling with my mom lying to my face to she understand to i have mental problmes including a bad short memorie to in her mind those are still lies how it was thought in the past years what is worst to i can't call her out when she does worst and when she sleep in my small bed with me she does same like every dad ever and keep the TV on her dramas while she's mostly sleeping while my dad can get mad at literally anything and my young sister who is already 12 does mostly nothing and keep her phone at high volumte at night on Minecraft videos of all the man childs screaming like bit#$% and she whent in trips at some kids events or to another sister of mine having fun while i whent only for medical reasons and i say this to i had a few more stories to share with you (and they don't go away from the back of my head easily plus i regret i didn't share them to il forget them) and another LoRA or two i was preparing to make even thou im the only one who use them. 😮💨
